The Blonde Update: I Am Still Breathing – Part 1

I am still alive, just a little dusted [laughing out loud]! No, there is no dust even near me, I have been so tremendously busy that absolutely stopped blogging. The crave has always been there but I would push it away in order to … well, to do something else.

I know being too busy is not an excuse really but I just had no extra energy to pull my thoughts together and make a blog post. I must admit I am struggling right now to put my thoughts together well enough so it does not come out as a complete mess. I have so much running through my blonde head that none of the mining trains are able to fit all my thoughts in its cabins. I will have to improvise here and there also trying to mention all the news, plans, hopes and events I was craving to finally pour all over the Internet.

Jobs Which Steal Our Lives

First, I have been really busy with work [you scream: boooooooring]. I know it is a very banal start but I must mention it as work takes most (!) of my lives and I am sure it is just the same with most of people. Our workplace is basically our home. I spend more hours at my desk then in bed with my boyfriend [oops too intimate?]. However this is the way it is and I am not here today to whinge about it but to say that it is so crucial to love what you do, just like you love your boyfriends  [giggling]; there is no future otherwise. My current job is really fun mostly due to the pretty fun team. People are very important! At the same time, I have never had a proper job before [and I am 27, I know, I know mummy] so I am probably just lacking the comparison opportunity. But look, I only moved to Sydney in 2008 and all I have been doing since is fighting for my right to be here. I think I got carried away with this war [and falling apart, at the time, relationships and friendships] that I forgot to think about something which fills our lives right up or steals them, for some – work. I don’t want to sound too banal but work is what makes many of us what we are! However if it is a “shit” job we also become pretty smelly. What I am trying to say is I like my job. I am a writer and this is what I do at work and in my free time [if I have any]. However I am also obsessed with fitness and its only getting crazier and crazier [in a good way].

Fitness Freak Cliche

I have noticed that when I was much younger I used to think that being an office worker is what everybody wants and you ought to succeed in some office workers job. Don’t ask me what I mean by success here – till now, I had no clue. I figured that me not succeeding in this office worker job [simply because I did not even had one] means I need to find a substitute I can try and maybe succeed in and get my “fame” [aka satisfaction / self - worth / recognition] I deserve.

Till around today I was thinking that my current obsession [I apologise for choosing such a strong word, I am aware of many other people being way more obsessed; however in my reality at this stage it is the perfect word] is a result of not succeeding in this imaginary office environment. I have always been a party animal, a table dancer, lose fun blonde Russian… not a runner or a gym junkie or … OMG God no, cyclist [laughing out very loud]!

Later I recalled how I really wanted to join this girls soccer team when I was in my year 2 [in school]. I played for a bit but then my mother did not want me to go to the soccer summer camp so I gave up. Later down the track I really wanted to join this fighting club. I fought till the moment my father noticed all the bruising and a broken head so I gave up. I got into running a little with occasional gym attendance couple of years before departing to Australia. I enjoyed it but I used to take hidden short cuts to the gym and run at night so my peers don’t make fun of me during the day. So here I am, trying to catch up on my “success” I never succeeded in.

First of all, although I like what I do for living [not much living, currency speaking, the industry brings though] I worked out [a fairly long time ago] that I am not thrilled by human interaction. It is going to sound contradicting but I love learning about people trying to figure them out but I prefer to interact with them as less as possible. It is a long and complex topic for some other day. Today I realised I want to be a zoo keeper! You may start laughing now but I am serious!

Meanwhile I am completing my third degree [bachelor of business] and thinking that I am just not ready to go for the fourth one straight away. So here I am trying to get out of the office and do something different:

As I am sure you know, I have done my first obstacle running [in the mud] couple of months ago now and I needed some time to digest it. I liked it and I thought I would come back to it but definitely not in winter. As winter started to approach Sydney I tried my best to stay in touch with sanity. Cold makes me so miserable that I can barely do everyday routine, getting sick most of the season. Being Russian is no help here! On the contrary, I used to be sick throughout the entire season back in the old cold motherland. So, on moment [yep it was a one moment decision] I signed up for my second obstacle race – Sydney Urbanathlon which is a City run through the obstacles but no mud, Sydney Color Run (no obstacles) and finally the run I dreamed of since I arrived to Sydney, City2Surf  (no obstacles). And then one day I had another very impulsive decision – 2013 MS Walk & Fun Run which I think I have chosen purely because of the word FUN

I have never done any charity runs and never really been interested in any. However this time it IS a fund raising run for multiple sclerosis research. I want to be upfront with everyone, I am not your ordinary charity runner or whatever. It was not my “closing the sale” point, I just decided to be a part of something. Do not over think my actions. They are never common Regardless, I am collecting donations and here is how YOU can help people with multiple sclerosis. Please click on the picture below and it will take you to the site where you can donate! Thank you

Now, I have nothing to do with this money, it all goes to the research. I personally donated $10 because I had only $30 on my account at the time. I am pretty broke most of the time I also had to Google multiple sclerosis to get a better understanding of what I am supporting here. So please join in: donate or run or both

Life Revolving Around Itself

While getting ready for my runs, I try my best not to fall out of life. However this is where I do not succeed again. It is very hard for me to stay 100% devoted to training, eating AND manage full time Uni and a part time job [with some other projects I will talk about later].  Being introvert helps though. I do not care about meeting friends as much which resulted in them leaving me [most of them] or me abandoning them [and I am sorry for it, guys] which made me fully devoted to my pleasures aka training, hobbies etc.

This week though I stared to feel down and realised I am carrying cold and it is about to burst out and put me to bed for weeks So I decided to stop training, sit down and blog So here I am!

Even though I just said I avoid human interaction I am not some kind of creep who sits at home and stares at the passing by people through the old curtains. No, I love hanging out and do fun stuff and I do it I also train with Fit Warrior which is basically is an outdoor boot camp which provides an opportunity to gain skills you might need on a mud run course. They portrait themselves as an outdoor obstacle course training and I am more than happy with it. 6am start training with them is not my usual or favorite routine [getting up at 4am wise] but it definitely makes you tougher! I like it Tomorrow (Saturday, 26th) for example we are training on the beach where I am hoping to view some mad sunrise!

Apart from joining group training here and there  I carry on with 6 times a week gym attendance [= training, not just handing around lol] following the program I set up myself combining different female bodybuilders gym plans whom I research and I follow online, I run every Saturday [if nothing else is on] trying to make it up to 20km [its 12 max at this stage] and cycle every Sunday which is about just over 20km trip. Recently I started to cycle to Uni and back which is 20km in total and I do it twice a week. Very good on your legs! Especially if you sit in the office all bloody time! Of course i am not perfect and I also like rotating training sessions and sometimes take longer rests if I feel like I am crashing.

I have never been into cycling therefore it is a very exciting trip for me, it is very new and I am learning a lot getting into it more and more. Baby steps! I have always thought that cycling is just out of normal, very weird and inconvenient sport. The more I cycle the more I see the point. I guess this is another valuable learning situation

One of the big steps for me was giving up bad habits. Now, whatever bad habit [s] you have, it is tremendously hard to give it up. Habit is one of the strongest instincts of ours. In fact, habits are what keep us alive when there is a danger. We love habits and they love us so they stick around. However whether it is too much sitting, excessive drinking, smoking, drugs, overeating or bad attitude, it is dangerous! I am not full on successful in stopping my bad habits ‘cravings but I have done a lot work and I am free from bad attitude, for sure [giggling]. To stop habits from sticking around, in my opinion, you need a very serious mind set. Imagining the goal and wanting it so badly that you cannot sleep or eat or think of anything else and knowing that your habit stops you from having this something you want determines the success. I would really like to share more on it but I am drafting a whole separate post about it. I will be back with more! I promise!

Stay Bad Habits Free! 

Habitual Suicide: How We Keep Killing Ourselves Out Of Habit

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Four Basics Which Keep Me Going

Runners! Crazy people, in my opinion! I am getting into is more and more though I started to research the running techniques, the betters legs positioning, shoes … oh shoes!

They say it really matters what shoes you are running in. I must admit I love that my shoes are so bouncy! However I have never had shins and calves issues before. With new shoes new pain arrived I don’t know if is it because I am training more or because shoes are not working for me. They are bloody expensive shoes I spent hours choosing Not sure if it is shoes or legs that are disappointing me but this well known “run in good shoes” is not working for me just yet.

Shoes or barefoot (yep apparently people run barefoot too)… what definitely works for me is the mind set! I cannot do any training without the right mind set! The believe in what you do is SO important it makes us either stronger or weaker. Whether you win or lose often depends on your mind set.

I am not a fitness freak or a tough person, not at all. I in fact enjoy what I do and I do it for my own pleasure; but I have to be a little cruel to myself sometimes to keep me going. And it is fine  We all have good days and not so much. Some days we feel like we could run 100km and not ever get tired and sometimes our bodies are so heavy and sluggish we can barely walk. You know what, it is all in our heads only!

I agree though that maybe a lack of calories might cause some sluggishness and moody attitude sometimes; or stress or difficulties in relationship…. but you know what? If running or weights lifting or cycling or swimming or anything is your true passion, neither of the problems matters. When you are in your state of doing what you like you know you can climb the Everest and every routine somehow vanishes

We are not always perfect and also have other duties; and priorities are not always easy to set up. I have noticed that when I run no matter how busy my day is and I know I cannot afford running at this very moment, for example, I have to switch my brain to running only! I need to think of my breathing, speed, what and how I feel… occasionally I think about pleasant stuff but never bad or sad things. Focus is what gets me going!

I must admit I often lose it. I love taking pictures of this and that and just put my drive aside from time to time while bending over to pick up a pretty flower. Well, this is who I am and I will roll with it  I suggest you to do the same. BUT if work needs to be done it needs to be done.

Focus is also the goals we set up. They make us feel urgent and important. So stick with them and keep working Goals are better of being realistic and small while the big one is far ahead, the small goals are like smaller steps to the finish. However, I do not believe in finish. No goals = no living, really. This is what I believe in and this is what keeps me going. 

No results or work is fun if you cant share it, can’t show it off, can’t be proud of it! This is why Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and blogging are flourishing - we love sharing And why not to love it. Yes all my friends also making fun of me for taking so many pictures of everything and blogging about them [giggle] but who cares. I like doing it hence I am doing it. If you don’t like it, I can show you where the door out of our relationship is

Love yourself and your work! Enjoy it and dance dance dance all the time Sometimes we love ourselves a little less than other days but just do not punish yourself. You need rest? Rest! You need to dance? Dance.  And do not forget to comply with the society if you do not want to appear weird just like it happens to me all the time

The Runners Curse: Stitch

I have always been running despite the fact that I am not a big fan of running. Saying that, I am really getting into it now. However sometimes at the very beginning of my running sesh or the very end of it I might experience sharp side pain and often have to stop to calm the pain down.

What is it? What it happens? How to treat it? 

My boyfriend believes that drinking before or while running causes stitches and always avoid any fluids when on the running track. I have noticed that it might be in fact true; however placebo effect might be in place.

1. So I went on to find out. Surprisingly no one really knows BOO! However some research has shown that drinking high-sugar beverages before exercise increases the likelihood of stitches. They also found a link between side stitches and increased curvature of the spine. I am really not sure what they mean by it Good news is that drinking while running does not cause side stitches, according to the same studies.

Many believe that eating too early before running might cause this annoying sharp pain. Others are sure that not breathing deep enough causes side stitches. 

2. Well, I found another theory. According to BBC Sport (and I quote) during exercise, our blood moves away from the diaphragm to the limbs. The diaphragm is the muscle that separates the stomach and abdomen from the heart and lungs. It’s one of the main muscles involved in breathing. Most scientists believe the pain is caused by a reduction in blood supply to the diaphragm, causing it to cramps. The stitch is caused by fluids which the body finds hard to digest. This causes the gut to “tug” on the ligaments connecting it to the diaphragm. Fairy complicating, isn’t it?

In other words and according to other articles, spasm in diaphragm is caused by over-working it by intense exercising. Hard to believe, isn’t it? However if you ever noticed stitches more often occur among new runners or after taking a long break from running. Made me wonder that maybe the lack of blood flow to the diaphragm muscle stressed during exercise causes pain, indeed.

I must admit though that I often drink during running and if I consume one or two sips I am fine; however more than that most likely to slow me down and bring on my knees, crunching in stitches pain.

3. Another theory is very straight forward and might seem to be making a lot of sense. It is when running, the stomach and liver and other organs are subject to jostling and bouncing causing tugs on the ligaments suspending the organs, causing periodic pain.

4. I am very sensitive when people talk biology but  research has shown that in about 50% of runners tested the exact stitch pain could be reproduced with manipulation of particular joints in the spine of the thorax. Runners with wrong posture often get stitch more often than the ones running correctly.

5. Another theory suggests that there are two layers of membrane that line the inside of the abdominal cavity and the layer attaches to the abdominal wall rub together causing pain.

As I have been observing myself I’ve noticed that I personally need to avoid drinking too much water (or eating of course) when running, need to breath deep and breath in through the nose while breath out though the mouth and of course when I start up I get stitches almost all the time and when I keep it regular no pain comes back to me. Thus, I believe it is fairly clear what causes my

stitches. I agree that the running posture might affect the stitches. My boyfriend and I ran together couple of times and while he is very relaxed, opened and tall I sometimes crunch while running bringing my arm forward swinging my whole body. When he runs he seem to hop, keeps his chest opened with less arms assistance. Boy I must say he is succeeding while I am barely keeping up with him. I tried the open posture keeping my back solid rock straight with less arms in font of me and seems to be working for me.

6. Now, another theory of my boyfriend was “you need to lose weight to be lighter” in order to avoid stitches. Well, acording to one of the studies body type (weight, age and sex) have no measurable effect on the incidence of stitches whereas poor posture, particularly in the thoracic region has a significant affect. When they say “poor posture” the mean “slouching” – curving of the spine causing a bowing or rounding of the back, which leads to a slouching or hunchback posture which is what I used to run as.

While many say there is no answer to the “what causes stitches” there are some hints and tips which work for many runners. Try them out and find your way. In order to avoid the pain:

•  do not consume large meal within two hours of exercise.
•  avoid drinking hypertonic drinks or eating concentrated foods prior to exercise. The say Isotonic drinks such as sports drinks are better if you really need to drink while running.
•  What to do if your way too thirsty than? Ensure hydration prior to commencing exercise to assist gastric emptying during exercise. AND continue drinking but in very small dosages in order to avoid dehydration but also not to become a stitch slave.

Australians Are Getting Fat. WHAT?

I have always thought Australians are obsessed with fitness. I am coming from a very not active (physically) country which made me believe (and it still seems to be so) that Aussies are running, swimming and cycling ALL THE  TIME! Surprisingly  they say Australians are getting fat! It is not just unappealing but dangerous for our hearts… Why that happens? I believe that the overall attitude towards health and fitness is awful However I see why [I will be discussing it in my further topic I am busy with at the moment]. Meanwhile, I want to share this piece of food for thought (from Run Stop Shop) with everyone who cares

Source: Run Stop Shop

To Train or Not To Train … On THAT Day

Once Upon A Time…

It was my leg day when period arrived but I still decided to go to the gym to see how I go. My mother always used to say that I need to rest when this day of the month arrives. I always trusted her opinion on it and would stay as passive as I could for about a week. You know how it happens. I must admit though that I had abnormal period pain when I was about 10 years old which was the result of certain health issues I had at the time. In this case the only option for me was to remain in bed for the entire menstruation cycle. To be honest, back then I had such an intense pain that I would scream and cry for the first 3-4 days of my period (considering that I used to have 9-12 days of period instead of usual 4-6 days) As soon as the cause of this nightmare was fixed, my sufferings were gone. However I was still used to the taught routine of staying in the horizontal position when menstruation starts, for at least couple of days. My mother would not allow me to exercise anyway.

Now when I am a grown up (or at least I like to think so ), I decided to find out whether training during period is bad for you. How great my surprise was when I discovered that it is in fact good for you – to stay active during bloody times I went on the Internet to ask people and read articles about the matter. I was approaching this topic with tabula rasa [meaning blank slate in Latin, is the epistemological theory that individuals are born without built-in mental content ] really, only knowing what my mother taught me, suspecting it was an outdated data. I did not go through tones of scientific work or students’ thesis. I in fact decided to go with quantity. I found so many articles stating that training during period is beneficial that I just had to believe it.

To start with, personally although my period now is far from the horror when I first had it, it is still pretty intense. I always take a day off training (which we are meant to have during a week anyway) or sometimes two to enjoy laziness of the painful day. I personally become highly irritable by anything, often swallowing tones of painkillers, crawled under the blanket sometimes crying or simply whinging during period. It is not always that awful but most of my “girls days” of the month are not the days you want to be around me. This time, however I trained on the very first day of the pain and decided to take a day off on the second day to chill and research if exercise and menstruating can be combined.

I am ware that for many people and especially for some athletes bleeding is such a burden that they take birth control pills in order to stop period happening at all.  I considered this option and thought about it a lot however I am not the biggest fan of constant retention of chemicals in my body. So what happens during period and shall we carry on training?

Some Bloody Facts…

Now, Turkish researchers surveyed 241 elite athletes to see if menstrual cycle affects their performance and how if it does. While nearly three out of four women said they felt worse just before menstruation, 63 percent said that their pain decreased during training and competition and 62.2 percent said that they believed their performance was just as good when they had their period as other times of the month. This research makes me feel that it is really fifty fifty for everyone. I am aware that we all are very different physically and mentally. For some people period pain is not really a hassle wheres others (including me) want to crawl under a kitchen stove and die silently.

On other hand, a West Virginia University study found that female runners performed equally well whether tested during the first half or second half of their menstrual cycles.  However, Timothy E. Hewett, Ph.D., director of the Sports Medicine Biodynamics Center at Cincinnati Children’s Hospital Research Foundation says that our motor control during menstruation is poorer which might easily result in anything from letting your knee collapse inward when you land to letting your quads do all the work instead of involving the hamstrings and glutes. Although this sounds very disproving of running during period, the same researcher claims that people can actually be taught how to reduce the risk of injuries during these weaker days.

Additionally, many researches say that exercise can reduce PMS symptoms and serve pains which in fact should become a motivation to workout even when one does not feel like it as we all know how awful does it feel to menstruate. However they all talk about aerobic exercise including walking, light running or jogging, dancing, yoga or planking. However Chrisalbeth J. Guillermo, MPH, a researcher from the School of Community Health Sciences at the University of Nevada, Las Vegas found that regardless of what phase of menstrual cycle women were, they would still maintain the level of exercise they kept throughout their cycle. They, in fact would go to the gym and exercise regardless of whether they were menstruating or not. Well, I assume it includes resistance training as well as aerobics.

All of the sources I went through agreed on the same view - it is in fact good for you to exercise while menstruating simply because it boosts the depressed mood, decreases stomach cramps and improves overall energy level. Good news hey!

How To… 

Well after reading so many articles on the topic I was persuaded that I shall not stop training when on period BUT let’s not forget every woman is different, and the way the woman’s body handles the menstrual cycle will be unique hence different from one another. Some women tend to bleed more heavily, and doing exercise can cause the bleeding to worsen which none of us want of course. Women that only bleed lightly may find that regular exercise can actually help to alleviate cramps and shorten the length of their cycle. How we handle exercise while on period is entirely up to each of us. My advice and I am not alone – LISTEN TO YOUR BODY, it will tell you what to do. I am aware that some people might “listen” to their body and over-analyse what they feel using “pain” as an excuse not to exercise. Well, do not forget it is a personal choice and I believe must be respected whatever it is As for myself, I will probably stick to 1-2 days off during period IF I feel like killing myself. BUT if the pain is not that excruciating but the mood is definitely down to ponit-kill-yourself, I am packing my gym bag

Another great advice I found was refraining from anything that causes your legs or hips to rise over your head. It is believed that inverting the body works against the natural flow of the menstrual cycle, creating discord in the body. So I guess having a leg plus abs day with getting my legs up in the air on the first day of my period was not the greatest move of mine.

When menstruating it is advised to stick with a lower intensity exercise while many others believe that period should not slow the fitness routine down. Again, your body knows the best here. Yoga and walking are one of the advised activities which I might take aboard instead of carrying on sweating my ass off in the gym or stay in bed feeling miserable

For Hard Corers…

As mentioned earlier all the articles I have read where talking about moderate training and period. So I carried on looking for some information on a slightly more hard core training during period. Well, when talking about bodybuilding, for example apparently we need to take metabolic rate under consideration because period affects it. Interestingly, we burn calories faster during our cycle than at all other times throughout the month. Researchers measure increases in total energy expenditure of 2.5 to 11% during this time. If it does not seem to be a lot, it IS in fact if you are training and dieting well. Now, for everyone out there working on their flat stomach, one of the biggest cycle-related complaints is bloating. Remember that it’s not abnormal at all for women to take on 5 to 10 extra pounds of water during their cycle.

However it is frustrating and we all know that feeling. While bloating is normal and hard to avoid, you might try the following: avoid salty foods, drink more water than usual, sip some herbal tea & season your foods with oregano. Again if training and dieting throughout the entire time is good, these little tips might make a big difference. Talk to yourself! I find it helpful when I know I am about to step in the moody time of the month. I try to rationalise my feelings knowing the stress I am under is only temporal and is only a result of a natural process ALL women go through. Some days are more successful than others but it is fine

Since during period we are dealing with increased bloating staying strict with diet might become a little harder. If there’s one time of the month for a break, well, this would be it. Chill now! Since we are burning up calories at a slightly elevated rate during period, the extra calories will stand a lower chance of being deposited as body fat.

Now when the period is over, our bodies are less sensitive to pain so it is in fact the perfect time to smash it harder! Thus, interestingly, period is not an obstacle of anyone’s fitness routine; however I prefer to take it easier during the beginning of it. Drink more water, rest and listen to your body, while carrying on with your diet and everything will be just great! STAY ACTIVE! 

Why To Skinny?

I probably was around 10 years old when first faced all-women-forever-lasting issue with being skinny, look hot, do not eat and behave modest. Okay maybe the very last lesson is a topic for a different day conversation but being skinny is one of many modern obsessions alongside with Fifty Shads of Gray and other seem to be useless things.

I’ve recently read that there are 11 million people who struggle with eating disorders! OMG, 11 million! Not like a thousand or a hundred which still appears to be massive to me. Why and when this obsession stepped in in our lives? Obsession with being skinny!

I say food industry! I say a century ago! I personally think that as food industry has been developing more and more vigorously, it made drastic adjustments to millions of people’s lives.

However what really happened? Well I found out that Americans, as well as Russians I would assume, have always been heavier and larger than Europeans. They simply had more land to grow food on. Russians also needed to store fat for winter, just like animals. Back in the 19th century plumpness was associated with health and wealth (in Russia). Fatter people were seen as rich whereas skinny would only be slaves or workers who simply had less food. Food and wine was one of the symbols of wealth.

Interestingly, between 1890 and 1920 specifically, America’s image of the ideal body completely changed from one of healthful plumpness to one where fatness became associated with sloth. There was an unusually strong current of disgust against people who were perceived as obese.”

One of the concerns of being obese was the corset, at the time. It was finally accepted that it was simply squishing internal organs, disrupting blood circulation. Do not confuse, although it might come across as slimming tool, corset was in fact designed to re-arrange body proportions to make breast and bum more prominent against slimmer waist. Metamorphoses in fashion also contributed into changing sizes.

Now, think about it, if McDonalds stops selling high calorie and high in fats food, personal trainers and most of the gyms will be out of work, as well as many medical industries which keep stuffing our society with “magic” weight loss pills.

I find food industry being one of the most influential, along side with fashion of course. Science “discovered” calories and divided food into protein, carbohydrates and fat. Fitness and physical studies stepped in and the entire world changed.

Nowadays though while being size zero is still what most of women want, becoming stronger is a new wave. Loosing weight is changing to burning fat, people are becoming more knowledgeable and curious, discovering more options of living. On other hand, being healthy and fit is still a life option of the “chosen” ones. Many people are still intimidated by gyms, boot camps or personal trainers. Some of them make fun of others being active whereas some people simply exclude themselves from healthier society, hating skinny models, football players and pretty much everything, leaving angry reviews on restaurants and cafes’ web sites.

To be skinny or not to be is a personal choice … is it? I am not sure if we choose being skinnier because we want it (for whatever personal reasons) or because we see these gorgeous skinny girls in the magazines, on TV and in the movies. Girls, for some people being skinny is a profession, they are paid to look so. I once had a stupid argument with a friend of mine saying that actresses are skinny and hot because this is a part of their job (obviously my male friends disagreed). If you are not doing your job well you are fired, isn’t it. Then why are we still shocked when we see skinny blonde actress remaining skinny after having 3 kids and 5 divorces. I am more than sure that if any of you were paid million of dollars for just being skinny to fit in the role in the TV show (I am not eliminating the fact that it also requires other skills & knowledge) and look pretty, you would have dropped any weight.

I must admit I personally love skinny type of females simply because I find it more attractive especially if the bottom is smaller than shoulders; however if you are following me it is a very male look which explains why I am attractive to it. Harder muscles and toner skin is my ultimate object of current worship-ment (if you may) and I must admit it is definitely not entirely my choice either…